Chapter Two

 

.oOo.

 

Frankie was so astonished she didn’t know what to say, so she said nothing. That Vincent, who was so together and sure of himself, was an alcoholic, was almost incomprehensible to her. Vincent felt sorry for her. She had just told him what was obviously a traumatic story for her and then he dropped this bomb on her.

 

“Frankie, say something! It can’t be any worse than what I’ve already heard,” he said, hoping that he hadn’t said too much too soon.

 

“I just don’t know what to say! You are so capable and well able for anything that you’d be the last person I would’ve pegged as an alcoholic.” Another realisation dawned on her. “I mean, you own a pub for God’s sake! That’s like me owning a cigarette factory or something! I am amazed!”

 

“You wouldn’t have thought that if you knew me two years ago,” he said, trailing off a bit. He wondered if he should go into further detail tonight. They’d have other opportunities to talk in the future.

 

“You know what Vincent,” she said, standing up. “This is not a conversation we should continue to have over a kitchen table. Go on inside and light the fire. I’m going to get changed, get some dinner ready and we are going to have this out. You were kind enough to listen to me, it’s the least I can do.”

 

Vincent looked at his watch and realised how late it was getting. “Frankie, maybe we’ve talked enough for one night. We can do this again some other time. I have to get back to Avril’s place and lock it up. Thanks for offering to listen though. I would take you up on it, but-”

 

“We haven’t talked at all,” she interrupted, “I yattered on, you listened! But if you have to get back I understand. Avril wouldn’t be too pleased if her house sitter was out half the night. Promise me that we will continue this and that you won’t leave it too long.”

 

“OK, it’s a promise. Don’t feel I’m avoiding this, I’ve had someone to talk to and there’s an A.A. in Cilldargan I’ve gone to a few times. But, when Avril gets back, I’ll be allowed out at night and we’ll arrange something. She should be back on Sunday I think. The Cat is racing in Galway and it’s her first race since Daddy G’s untimely demise,” he smiled.

 

“Don’t talk to me about that goat. Remind me to tell you what those two twits put on their accident report!” she laughed at the memory of Dónal’s face.

 

“Good to see you laugh Frankie,” he said. “You haven’t had the easiest time this week and I’m sorry you went through it alone.”

 

“It was good in a way, to go it alone,” she said, as she showed him out. “But thanks for listening. I feel so much better now that someone knows. At least those cigarettes in the drawer can’t thwart me anymore.”

 

“It’s like drink Frankie, just because you don’t have it to hand doesn’t mean there aren’t days where you’d give anything, just for one. Remember who to call if you feel that way. Don’t hesitate.” He took her hand and gave it a squeeze of support.

 

“I hope you know it works both ways,” she said, squeezing back before she let go. “Safe home. By the way, did Avril’s cat Stumpy show up yet?”

 

“How did you know it was missing?” he asked. “Avril left a note for me reminding me to feed it if it showed up or to call Siobhan if it was sick.”

 

“She asked me to keep an eye out for it. That stupid moggy, this is the fourth time he’s disappeared. He always comes back, generally with some piece missing! Good night Vincent, drive carefully!”

 

“Yes Guard!” he saluted. “Thanks Frankie, for everything. Don’t tell Avril you fed me apple tart. Good night, see you tomorrow.”

 

“Bye Vincent!” with that Frankie closed the door and leaned up against it. What a night. Firstly, she never for one second thought she’d tell anyone about Derek or about what happened last weekend. And secondly, Vincent admitting he was an alcoholic… unbelievable! “No wonder he was so shocked when I breathalysed him for drink driving,” she thought to herself. “You just never know…”

 

.oOo.

 

When Vincent arrived back at Avril’s place he remembered to lock up the gates and to check that all animals were safely secured. When he got to the front door he was amazed to see that the cat had returned. Frankie was right; he seemed to be missing a piece of his right ear. Vincent bent down to pick up the cat but Stumpy was in no mood to be handled and lashed out with a well-aimed claw.

 

“Yeouch!!!” yelped Vincent, examining his hand. “You flamin’ cat! Right, make your own way in then!” As he opened the door, Stumpy trailed miserably after him and flopped into a pile of horse blankets, an obvious favourite retreat. Vincent wondered what to do, should he call Siobhan now or wait until the morning? However, the cat was obviously injured he decided it would be best not to wait. He went into the kitchen and picked up the phone, where he saw Siobhan’s number on speed-dial.

 

“Hello?” answered Siobhan.

 

“Oh, hi Siobhan, Vincent here,” he replied.

 

“Vincent! What’s up? Anything thing wrong with the horses?” asked Siobhan, instantly in ‘vet’ mode.

 

“No, they’re fine. Sorry for the late call but it’s Avril’s cat, Stumpy. He’s shown up minus a piece of ear and looking wretched in general,” he explained.

 

“Ah, I see. Well, if I remember that cat, don’t try and touch him. The bloody yoke will scratch the hand off you! I’m on my way.”

 

“Thanks Siobhan. Too late about the scratch warning, he’s already taken a swipe at me,” Vincent replied.

 

Siobhan laughed and told him she was leaving immediately and to stay well clear of Stumpy. Within fifteen minutes she was there, equipped with strong gardening gloves for handling unruly patients.

 

“Let’s see what you’ve done to yourself this time Stumpy,” she said, picking the cat up. “Do you know Vincent, this is the fourth time this cat has returned with some sort of injury? The degree of violence suffered varies but somehow he’s always managed to survive.”

 

“Yeah, Frankie told me about him earlier. What can you do for him?” asked Vincent.

 

“I’ll have to take him to the surgery. This is a lot nastier than it looks and I hope he doesn’t have an infection,” she said, as she put Stumpy into a cat carrier. “Frankie and Stumpy go back a long way. When it was her first week here, Stumpy got into the squad car when she was visiting Avril. Then she got an urgent call so she had to go and jumped into the car, switching on the siren. Well, Stumpy went ape and frightened the life out of Frankie. She got such a fright, she tried to get out of the car and her seat belt was still on…”

 

At this stage Siobhan was laughing so hard at the memory tears were rolling down her cheeks. Vincent could just picture the scene and started laughing too.

 

“Oh God, Vincent, it was too funny!! Here she was, struggling with the seat belt, the siren going and Stumpy yowling and hissing in the front seat. Such language from Frankie - I’ve never heard the like of it since! To this day, she makes damn sure to close the car door if she comes up here. I had a grand view of it all as I was with one of the horses. I couldn’t even look over at her when they managed to get Stumpy out of the car because I was so afraid that I wouldn’t be able to stop laughing once I started.” Siobhan continued to giggle to herself as she loaded Stumpy into the back of her jeep. “Goodnight Vincent, I’ll keep him for a few days. Avril can pick him up when she gets back.”

 

“Goodnight Siobhan, say hi to Brendan and Aisling for me! Thanks for coming out. Bye!” he called, as Siobhan made her way out of the yard.

 

Vincent locked the gates behind her and went back inside, smiling at he thoughts of Frankie and the cat. “What a day,” he sighed as he got his supper. He was glad that he had the chance to clear the air with Frankie. Sometimes, like today, he felt sorry for her because she didn’t seem to have anyone in Ballykissangel to talk to. He was glad that she felt able to confide in him and he was glad too that he could finally tell her about his alcoholism. As his father said “heavy secrets get lighter when you share”. Well, he wasn't too pleased when his rebel son returned from Brazil an alcoholic. However both he and Vincent’s mother did everything in their power to help him. It worked in the end, but it was a hard won battle. Vincent switched off the lights and made his way upstairs to bed, thinking about his day.

 

.oOo.

 

On Sunday, everybody in Ballyk was glued to their televisions to see The Cat race in Galway. Fitzgerald’s opened an hour earlier in honour of the occasion and anyone who was out and about arrived to watch the race. Vincent hurried over after 12 o’clock mass, making it just in time.

 

“Pull up a stool Father,” said Óonagh, back from her week away. “It’s just about to start.”

 

“Thanks Óonagh,” he said, fitting the stool into the only space available. “How was your week?”

 

“Oh, it was fine. I went to my mother’s place in Mullingar to see her. She gets a bit lonely now we’ve all left home. Oh, before I forget Father, there’s a room free from Tuesday night, if you want it,” she said.

 

“I do indeed. I’ve imposed on Avril long enough. Book me in Óonagh,” he said. “Fr. Mac will be pleased,” he thought.

 

“Whist, whist, will yis! Isn’t it ‘bout to start an’ all der? I hope ya’ said a few prayers for her ‘n’ De Cat, now Father!” rambled Louis, in his usual manner.

 

Vincent, not having a clue what was just said, opted for the easy way out. “Erm, yes!” he smiled, hoping that would cover it.

 

“Good man yersel’, whist now, der off!!!” shouted Louis.

 

Vincent was already looking at the screen. He hoped, mostly for Avril’s sake, that The Cat would do well. She didn’t have to win, just run a good race. The group were shouting from the start. The Cat cleared the first four fences easily and was doing well, when Frankie ran in.

 

“Ah no!!! Is she still running? I missed it!” she exclaimed looking for a free spot, trying to see over the forest of heads in front of her.

 

“Quick Frankie, over here!” said Vincent and pulled her in front of him. He cried out “Ohhh, watch out! Bloody hell!!” when another horse swerved across The Cat’s path.

 

The horse ran on out of the way and they all heaved a sigh of relief. The Cat cleared the next fence and the next. They were really cheering her on now, as the riders turned down the home straight. The Cat was neck and neck with the second horse and they were only a length behind the leader. All of a sudden The Cat took the last jump too early and the unthinkable happened, horse and rider crashed out of the race bringing four other horses with her on the way down. The stunned silence in Fitzgerald’s said it all.

 

“Well, Holy God!” said Louis.

 

“Oh no! What could’ve happened?” asked Frankie.

 

“Your guess is as good as mine,” replied Vincent. “She was doing so well but it looked like she took the last jump too early. Look, they’re replaying it now.”

 

They all turned their attention back to the screen and sure enough, it was plain to see, The Cat took the last jump far too early and threw her rider. The commentators said nobody was seriously hurt and all horses were uninjured.

 

“Poor Avril,” said Óonagh. “I wonder what’ll happen now?”

 

“Nothing will happen!” said Paul. “Avril’ll bring the horse back here and she’ll live to run another race. I’m surprised she did as well as she did without the goat. Just shows ya’ that that horse will be a real runner in time.”

 

“I suppose you’re right Paul,” said Vincent. “But it can’t be easy for Avril. She had a lot to prove with this race. Shame it turned out this way.”

 

“God, you’d think the bloody horse died or something!” declared Paul. “Where did everyone go?

 

 Vincent looked around and saw the crowd had melted away. There was only Louis, Frankie and himself left in the pub.

 

“Hummm – not good for business Paul? You open an hour earlier and already most the regulars are gone! You’ll just have to wait for another race meeting,” said Vincent. “I’ll have another orange there, please Óonagh.”

 

“You and your orange,” snorted Paul. “Try something a little stronger for once!”

 

“Hey, don’t take it out on me just because you can’t keep your customers!” said Vincent. “You should be happy I’m here at all!”

 

“Whatever…” said Paul, as he went down to the cellar.

 

“Sorry about that Father, here’s your orange,” said Óonagh, passing him the drink. “He’ll be in better form later. Can I get you anything Frankie? Louis, you all right there?”

 

“I’m fine Óonagh, I have to be off anyway” said Frankie, thinking about Vincent’s exchange with Paul. “Nice save,” she thought, “if I didn’t know better I’d never suspect he was an alcoholic. Never.”

 

“Grand missus, grand,” mumbled Louis to Óonagh.

 

“OK then!” smiled Óonagh, as she made her way into the kitchen.

 

Frankie gave Vincent a small smile. “A bad race for Avril - when is she coming back?” she asked.

 

“Tonight, I think,” he replied. “Where are you off to now?”

 

“I’m going to see Sheelagh, see how she’s doing,” answered Frankie. “When Avril gets back tell her I was asking for her.”

 

“I will. Tell Sheelagh I’ll drop b and see her on Tuesday, if she’s around,” said Vincent.

 

“All right. Bye Father, see you around. Bye Louis – stay away from that van today. You’ve had a skin-full already!” she instructed.

 

“I will, I will, I will Guard! Sure, an’ wouldn’t I not be drivin’ her on a Sunday in any case, at all, at all?”

 

 Vincent listened hard but he still couldn’t understand a word the man said. Frankie, on the other hand, had no such problems.

 

“What’s it doing outside then? Did it drive here by itself? I’m warning you Louis. Leave it there.” With a nod to Vincent, she was out the door.

 

“What does tha’ one be thinkin’ of? Sure wouldn’t I be doing no one no harm except to mesel’, be driving it home? I dunno Father, life be very hard ‘n’ cruel be times with the likes of her bossin’ the likes of me around,” sighed Louis.

 

“Erm... yes.”

.oOo.

 

Vincent finished his lunch while talking to Óonagh. Louis, thankfully, hadn’t said anything else since Frankie’s departure, much to Vincent’s relief. He wondered why Frankie was formal again, was she trying to gain some distance from their conversation last night? On second thoughts, knowing Frankie, she wouldn’t want anyone to know that she had a softer side. However they may talk when they were alone, she would not be the sort of person to carry that informality over into general conversation where others would hear. It was just her way. Brendan, Siobhan and Avril for instance, called him Vincent all the time now and joked about with him quite openly. It wouldn’t be Frankie’s style, he suspected. He’d have to remember that. He thanked Óonagh for the lunch and reminded her about the room on Tuesday. Óonagh assured him that all would be ready and she would make sure that Paul was is a better mood by then! Vincent waved his thanks and was about to say goodbye to Louis, sleeping in his corner. “Why bother!” he mused, “I’ll only end up saying yes to whatever the man says!” With that he made his way out and headed for his car parked in the church grounds. Fr. Mac would want to see him today, to report on the week’s happenings. Just as he was getting into his car, his mobile rang.

 

“Hello?” he answered.

 

“Bloody horse!” came the reply.

 

“Ah, Avril. Need I ask how you are?”

 

“No, you needn’t. I’m coming home. I tried ringing the house but you weren’t there. Is Johnny about today?” she said, sounding defeated.

 

“I don’t know. I left early this morning and I haven’t been back since. I suppose he’ll be in to look after Flash,” he replied.

 

“Are you going back there now?” she wondered.

 

“I wasn’t going to but if you need -”

 

“No, it’s okay, I just wanted Johnny to get The Cat’s stall ready. I suppose he will anyway. Sorry I didn’t call before now. How is everything there?”

 

“Everything’s fine. People are sorry about the race. We couldn’t believe it!”

 

You couldn’t believe it! I don’t know what went wrong,” she paused. “Right, well I don’t want to talk about this now. Nothing else?”

 

“Stumpy showed up minus a bit of ear, he’s with Siobhan. And there’s some letters, including one registered one for you,” he answered.

 

“Oh good, I was sure he wasn’t going to make his way back this time. What’s in the letter?”

 

“Avril, I didn’t open it!!” he said, surprised that she would think he would snoop.

 

“I was just wondering! Maybe you thought it was urgent or something. Never mind, I’ll get it later. It’s a long drive back but I’m leaving within the next hour or two. I expect to be there around eight or nine,” she explained. “I’ll see you then.”

 

“Yeah, see you then. Have a good trip.”

 

“I will, see ya’,” she said and hung up.

 

Vincent put his phone away, thinking that she sounded very down. He’d get back to the house as soon as he could and get dinner or something – or hide the evidence that he didn’t eat any of her weird and wonderful inventions!

 

.oOo.

 

 

When Vincent arrived at Fr. Mac’s house, he saw one of the other curates leaving.

 

“Oho!!! You’re in trouble – you’re late!” called Angus.

 

“Yes, I realise that, mate!” he said tightly. “However, since I am the favourite around these parts, I’m sure he won’t mind.”

 

“Yeah, dream on, Vinny! See you next week,” answered Angus. He was an even-tempered young man from Donegal and was doing well in a small parish near Ballyk called Ballinaclash. There were, at most, forty people living there and they were scattered around the foothills of the mountains. Most of Angus’ time was taken up by driving up to one house, back again and into the neighbours. The long tracks into each house made it difficult for anything without four wheel drive to get by. Even with the required jeep one more than one occasion he was caught in some ditch and had to be rescued by tractor.

 

“Bye Angus, don’t fall down any bog-holes this week!” called Vincent as Angus waved goodbye.

 

“Father Sheahan, if I’m not interrupting anything, perhaps you would be so good and to come inside,” came an irate voice from the doorway.

 

“Just coming Father. How are you?” inquired Vincent as he made his way in.

 

“Hurmp!” answered Fr. Mac. “Have you found any where else to live yet?”

 

“As a matter of fact, I have. Fitzgerald’s has a room free from Tuesday, which I’ll take,” said Vincent. “I don’t know how-”

 

“It’s only marginally better, having my curate living in a pub. But it’ll do for now. How long will you be able to stay there?” Father Mac looked at Vincent with a frown. He was fed up with this messing about and wanted Vincent in a place of his own before the year got much older.

 

“As I was just about to say, I don’t know how long I can stay. I suppose we’ll worry about that bridge when we get to it?” replied Vincent, in his most conciliatory voice.

 

“No Father, we’ll worry about it now, if you don’t mind! You need to be in Ballykissangel, so you can’t stay here but I can’t have you roaming about the place-”

 

“Fr. Mac,” he interrupted, “I know that it’s a difficult situation. But until we find another house, there’s nothing we can do. I’ll be fine, I just need you to trust me!”

 

“I’ve been asked to trust my curates in the past, Father. It didn’t work out too well, especially in Ballykissangel.” Fr. Mac ushered Vincent into his office and gestured for him to take a seat. “You have to understand, I must look out for your best interests as well as those of your parishioners. You may feel that you will never be tempted to break any of your vows, but you can’t be sure what other people will do.”

 

“I’m not following you Father,” said Vincent, deciding that now would be the best time to force Fr. Mac to say what was on his mind.

 

“Don’t be so obtuse! You know exactly what I mean. You may say that you are perfectly comfortable living with a single woman and it may be so, for the moment. But you need to take *her* feelings into consideration also!”

 

“Avril Burke is in no danger from me, anymore that I am in danger from her! You know that!” said Vincent loudly.

 

“Don’t shout at me Father! I’m not just talking about Avril Burke. I could be talking about anyone. You need to have a certain distance between yourself and the people in your parish. The Church in Ireland has taken a lot of hardship in these past few years, as I’m sure you know. Some of it is warranted but some of it is not. We need to be careful and not to go looking for trouble. I’m not against you here Father. I want to help you but I can’t if you pull against me.”

 

“Fr. Mac, I understand what you’re saying, but you have to believe me when I say that I am happy here. For the first time in my life maybe. I wouldn’t do anything to jeopardise that.”

 

“Vincent, I know you are and I’m glad. But sometimes, I get a feeling about you that something is not quite right. I don’t know exactly what it is and I’m sure if I ask you now, you won’t know what I’m talking about. I’m asking you now to come to me first if you have any sort of problem at all. I may not be who you want to come to, but I am your parish priest and the person responsible for you while you are here. I’ve learnt from my experiences not to force you to do something you don’t want to do, so I’ll try and help you in whatever way I can.”

 

Vincent was shocked at this speech. Was Fr. Mac talking about his alcoholism? “Fr. Mac, emm, well I think I know what you mean. I never told you this, but between Brazil and coming here I-”

 

“I know.”

 

“How…?”

 

“Do you think I’d accept a priest as a curate without knowing everything about him? Give me some credit!”

 

“So, you always knew?”

 

“Of course I did Father! I was surprised, but if you were going to give yourself another chance, who was I to stop you? That isn’t what I was referring to however. Whatever your problems in the past were, I hope you’ve found some comfort to be able to deal with them now. The other problem, well, I don’t know what it is. Is it that you are much younger than I and see things so differently that I’m uneasy? I don’t know. Whatever it is and if it arises I want to be the first person you call. Can you promise me that?”

 

“Well, I don’t know what I’m promising here! But you can rest easy Father. If I get in some kind of trouble, I’ll speak to you first,” promised Vincent. “Can I ask you a question?”

 

Fr. Mac nodded.

 

“You keep talking about ‘the past’ and ‘before’. What exactly happened here? I know it had something to do with the woman who ran the bar and the curate of the parish, but nobody wants to tell me what happened.”

 

“That’s because it’s a sad story and the people miss Assumpta and Peter greatly. It didn’t start out sadly but gradually over time, Fr. Peter Clifford fell in love with Assumpta Fitzgerald. He denied it all along and when neither of them could take it anymore, he told her. However, Assumpta had an accident in the bar while changing and old fuse and was electrocuted. She died immediately and Fr. Clifford left the parish, devastated. I never heard from him again but I believe he’s still a priest. The poor man. We didn’t get along too well, you know, but I wouldn’t wish that on anyone,” said Fr. Mac, recounting the heartbreaking story.

 

“That’s awful! I understand now what you were talking about earlier.”

 

“There’s a lot more to it than what I just told you but that’s how it all ended. He was greatly loved in the parish. I thought he’d find it difficult to begin with as he was English, but he just fitted right in. A bit like yourself, actually. Fr. Aidan O’Connell then took over and he was there until the week before you arrived. He moved to an abbey in Limerick and is happy there, by all accounts. So now Father, you have the recent clerical history of Ballyk, make of it what you will!” With that Fr. Mac stood up from behind his desk and picked up a teacup, waving it in Vincent’s general direction.

 

“I’m fine thanks Father, I should be getting back anyway. Is there anything else?” asked Vincent.

 

“No, I think we’ve covered enough for today, wouldn’t you agree?”

 

“I would! Thanks for everything Father. I’ll see you during the week, OK?”

 

“Goodnight Father. I’m sure I’ll drop in to catch up some time. You’ll let yourself out?”

 

“I will, bye now!” replied Vincent as he left. He got into his car and drove off back to Avril’s place. He thought about his conversation with Fr. Mac during the drive. “Well, this has been some week! First I have a soul-searching chat with Frankie and then I get the same with him! Very strange indeed. I wonder what he meant by ‘not quite right’? How would he know if something is ‘not quite right’ if I don’t know myself? Weird!” Vincent arrived back at the yard and parked his car. He left the gate open for Avril, as Johnny had secured all four legged animals for the night. He spotted that The Cat’s stall was all ready and waiting for its occupant. Flash was whinnying softly to himself and munching on some hay. It was a pleasant place to live in he thought. In the early morning and in the evenings all was quite and peaceful. He would miss it when he left.

 

.oOo.

 

At half past ten, when Vincent was just finishing up, he saw Avril’s horse carrier pull into the yard and he went out to meet her.

 

“Hi Avril, welcome back! Can I give you a hand there?”

 

“Hi Vincent – Ow!!! God, I’m stiff from sitting in that thing for so long!” she hobbled around to the back of the van. “Grab that other handle there and on three, let the back down. One, two, three!” The two of them lowered the back down to the ground and Avril went in to unhitch The Cat. “Come on you! There’s a nice fresh bed for ya’ – poor thing - must be tired after that journey. Come on.” She gently coaxed the tired mare out and led her into her stall. Vincent leaned over the door to talk to her.

 

“Did you have a good drive back?”

 

“It wasn't too bad really. Depressing that I didn’t return in a blaze of glory. She really misses the goat I think. I’ll have to think of something for her,” said Avril brushing The Cat down. “So, Stumpy showed up did he?”

 

“Yeah, I came back late on Thursday night I think it was, and here was the poor old cat waiting to be let in. You see this scar?” he held up his hand to demonstrate. Avril nodded her head. “Well, that’s what your beloved Stumpy did to me when I tried to pick him up.” He gave her a hand to shut the stall door and they made their way inside.

 

“Awww, poor you – did the nasty cat give you a big ol’ scwape?” said Avril, in a baby voice.

 

“Yeah, laugh all you want at me. And all I did for that flamin’…”

 

“Now, now!! Watch the language!” she laughed. “Thanks for looking after Stumpy and the house. Did you find the food I left for you?” Vincent decided to tell the truth.

 

“Yeah, it was exactly where you said, thanks!” It was the truth - he found it, he just didn’t eat it. “Do you want some grub now?”

 

“ ‘Grub’ would be lovely. What do you have?”

 

“I just stocked up on whatever you normally buy from Kathleen. It must be useful to have her. You can never forget anything on your shopping list!”

 

“She has her advantages! Oh, hand me that letter over there, would you?”

 

Vincent unpinned the registered letter from the board and gave it to her. Avril sliced it open with a knife that he had just put down on the table and read the contents.

 

“What the…”

 

“What is it?” he asked, curious.

 

“I don’t believe it!!! Sod this!!!” Avril slammed the letter back on the table.

 

What?”

 

“That bloody Frankie Sullivan and her stupid speed camera! It’s a feckin’ fine of a hundred quid, is what!! Christ Almighty!!” Avril was livid and ranted at Vincent. “Can you believe it? Has she nothing better to do with her time that patrol back roads from here to Cilldargan? And I have to - “present your license at your local Garda station. Failure to do so will result in further action” Further action! I’ll give her further action!”

 

“Hey, come on! Sit down and have this,” he said, giving her some of the weird concoctions she liked and tea. “Frankie was only doing her job, she-”

 

“I might have known you’d defend her!” said Avril, definitely in no mood to hear anything about Frankie. “Where am I going to get a hundred quid and just hand it over?”

 

“I’m not defending her!” he said, stung. “I’m just saying she has a job to do like the rest of us. One hundred pounds is a bit steep though. How fast were you going?”

 

“Says here I was clocked at sixty-five in a thirty mile zone. There’s a photo too.”

 

“Sixty-five!”

 

“Don’t look so shocked! You had your own problems with the law too! It’s a straight road around the back of O’Brien’s field near the entrance to Cilldargan. I can’t believe she caught me and I never saw her. Damn!”

 

“What are you going to do?” he asked, letting the comment about his drink-driving scare slide.

 

“What choice do I have? I’ll have to pay up and give in my license.”

 

“Give in your license!! Will they take it from you?”

 

“Oh no, they normally just enter it into a book and give you a stern talking too. Thankfully the penalty points system isn’t up and running yet. I suppose that’s one good thing. Some Gardaí really have sod all to do with their time!” she said getting angry again.

 

“Avril, it happened. For tonight, forget about it and eat up. Talk about the race or something, or maybe not,” he said, catching her dark look. “Hey, I won’t be here after Tuesday. Óonagh says there’s a room free in the pub so I’m moving down there. I’ll miss these little chats!”

 

“Shut up Vincent!” she said, smiling a little. “Thanks again for looking after the place. Saved me worrying about it. Hope you manage living with the Dooleys!”

 

“It was no trouble, apart from Stumpy! I’m sure it’ll be fine in Fitzgerald’s – I hope. I can always move on again though, plus the new houses should be starting soon.”

 

“Is Fr. Mac going to buy one?

 

“So he said but if anything else turns up first, we’ll go for that one.”

 

“You must have caught him on a good day!”

 

“Oh, I don’t know. He’s not so bad really. Just a bit old fashioned I reckon.”

 

“A bit old fashioned! I think that’s an understatement!”

 

“Yeah, well, I’ve got to work with him so I may as well get used to him,” he replied, not wanting to into any further detail.

 

Avril sensed there was more to it but she didn’t push. After all, it was not for her to worry about the inner workings of the Church. She put her dishes away and yawned. “I’m whacked. It’s been a long day, wouldn’t you agree?”

 

“I would! Well, goodnight Avril. Sorry about the fine.”

 

“Not as sorry as I am. I’ll just put this day down as one to forget. Goodnight Vincent. See you in the morning.”

 

“Yeah, see ya’!” he waved goodnight and went upstairs.

 

Avril finished cleaning up and just as she was about to switch off the light, she spied something on the counter.

 

“Vincent Sheahan, you cheat – do I see apple tart?”

 

.oOo.

 

The following Tuesday was move-out day for Vincent so Avril said she’d accompany him to Fitzgerald’s and go pay her fine too. Vincent arrived around noon and Óonagh was there to welcome him.

 

“Welcome Father! Avril, nice to see you. I just have the room ready for you, Father. Would you like any lunch?”

 

“Ah, no thanks Óonagh, I had some before I left. I’ll just leave my stuff and head off.”

 

“Okay then, you know the times for dinner but help yourself to whatever’s in the kitchen if you get hungry before then,” she said leading them up the stairs. “The kids will be home around three, so grab what you can! The TV is working in your room too. I leave you to get settled in.” With that, she went back down to the bar.

 

“Not bad,” said Avril, looking around. “Where’ll I leave these books?”

 

“Oh, just dump them on that table there. I have to get a move on. Thanks for having me to stay Avril, it was great of you.”

 

“You can come back any time you know Vincent. I’ll miss having you around.”

 

“I’ll be dropping by as always! Remember to give me a call if you ever need me.”

 

“I will,” she said giving him a swift hug. “You’re a good man Charlie Brown! I’ll see ya’ around!”

 

“You’re not so bad yourself. Cheers Avril, thanks again!”

 

He saw her out and started to unpack his bags. He was looking forward to getting his own place, and this was as close as he’d come in the past few weeks. He was half finished when he realised that he would be late for one o’clock mass so he headed down to the church. On his way he saw Avril’s jeep still parked outside. “She must be over paying her fine,” he thought and continued on.

 

Meanwhile, things were not going as smoothly for Frankie and Avril.

 

.oOo.

 

“I want a word with you!” exclaimed Avril as she burst into the station, frightening the life out of Frankie who was reading her paper.

 

“Christ, Avril!!! What’s wrong with you?” cried Frankie.

 

“Don’t play innocent with me Garda Sullivan. If you hand out hefty fines like this to your supposed friends, I’d hate to see what you do to your enemies!”

 

“Avril-”

 

“It’s Ms. Burke actually”

 

“What!?!” exclaimed Frankie, totally bewildered.

 

“We are no longer on a first name basis. If you want to be officious then I can be too,” stormed Avril. “Here’s your blood money and here’s my license. Post it back to me when you’re done.” With that final command, she marched out and slammed the door behind her.

 

Frankie sat back in her chair in utter amazement and picked up the documents Avril had flung down on the ledge.

 

“What the hell is this all about?” she said to herself. She started to read the official fine notice and saw the details. “Oh for crying out loud! Sixty-five!” She then realised that Avril thought she had caught her on speed camera. Avril didn’t know that Cilldargan were randomly setting up speed traps around the area as the number of accidents due to speed were on the increase. Even if she had been the one at the speed trap, she couldn’t just let it slide that Avril was doing sixty-five in a thirty mile zone, friend or no friend. She didn’t think it was fair for Avril to behave this way towards her and she would tell her that. Frankie entered the details into the record book and sent the fine on to the Dublin headquarters. Avril was supposed to do that herself but if it didn’t go today, she would be late paying it so Frankie did her a favour. She didn’t feel like it, not after she was shouted at, but there was no point in behaving like a child. So, she filled out the forms, stamped them to show that the fine was received on time by a member of the Gardaí, and put it in the post. She then filled in Avril’s license number in her other book and wondered should she just send it on as requested, or rather, ordered to do. Frankie decided not to. Avril would have to come in to pick it up and Frankie could explain the situation to her. She felt sorry for Avril, as she knew money was tight, but she did break the law and it was Frankie's job to reel in the law-breakers. She always felt bad when her job conflicted with her own personal life. When she first joined up she was accused by her then boyfriend of been unable to switch off and taking the job too seriously. Then there was the fiasco with Derek. Then there were the numerous times in Ballyk where she came across as too rigid with people that she would later meet in the pub. There was also the problem of being too friendly with the same people as Siobhan pointed out to her some time ago. She thought she had finally managed to reach a comfortable balance and now this happened. While she didn’t see Avril too often in Fitzgerald’s, she did consider her a friend. She hoped Avril could see beyond the uniform and remember that Frankie was a friend first. This line of thought led her to Father Aidan and a conversation they had about that exact topic. Sometimes people saw the uniform and could never see the person, while others gradually came to see that there was a friend there too. She missed Aidan a lot and with a pang realised that she hadn’t contacted him in ages. When he told her he was leaving, well, she was gob smacked because it was so unexpected. Within two weeks, he was gone and she felt very lonely. Then Vincent arrived and at first, she was determined not to like him because he was replacing Aidan. However, after a very short time, she found that it was too hard not to like him. He was just that kind of man, totally different from Aidan but likeable all the same and quickly becoming a good friend of hers. She looked at a picture on her notice board that was taken last year at Niamh and Sean’s wedding. They were all so happy then, especially herself. This was a good place to be and even though old friends had moved away she felt very much at home here. Suddenly she stopped dreaming and gave herself a mental shake. She quickly busied herself with tidying up her desk and picking up the post for delivery. Trying to put past adventures out of her head wasn’t easy.

 

.oOo.

 

Avril was still hopping mad by the time she reached Siobhan’s surgery, so she took some time outside to cool down.

 

“Hi Avril! Are you looking for Siobhan?” inquired Brendan on his way in with Aisling.

 

“Oh, hi Brendan – didn’t see you there! Yeah, I’m just taking a breather. How’s Aisling?” she smiled at the little girl who turned suddenly shy and buried her face in Brendan’s shoulder.

 

“She’s fine,” he said, laughing at Aisling. “Siobhan’s inside.” He ushered Avril in ahead of him, wondering why she looked so flushed.

 

“Hi everyone!” said Siobhan, looking up from a bag of surgical instruments. “Oh Avril, good to see you, Stumpy is ready to go home. Brendan, I’ll just be a minute,” she bent to give Aisling a kiss. “Hiya’ pet! Were you a good girl?”

 

“Uh huh, an’ Daddy boughted me a kite!” answered Aisling.

 

“Did he now? Well you can show it too me when I give Miss Burke back her sick cat. You wait there with Daddy.”

 

Siobhan went into the surgery followed by Avril. “Here he is!” she said, lifting Stumpy carefully out of his cage. “He has an infection in that ear Avril, so you’ll have to keep him on these antibiotics until the end of the week. Otherwise, he’s fine.” She put the cat gently into a carrier that Avril brought along. “Make sure you mash these in with his food,” she instructed handing Avril a box of antibiotics.

 

“Thanks Siobhan. Will you send the bill on to me and I’ll settle it up with you?”

 

“Of course. Sure, leave it until I come out to the stables.” Siobhan knew Avril would pay her when she could.

 

“You’re a life-saver! Thanks for looking after this fella’! I was sure he wouldn’t return this time.”

 

“He’ll always make his way back Avril. Like any cat, he has nine lives and he hasn’t used up half of them yet! Do you remember the time when he lost his cool in the front of Frankie’s car? I still laugh when I think about it!”

 

“Don’t talk to me about her! You won’t believe what happened this morning.”

 

“What happened? I thought you two were friends!”

 

“Huh, so did I! But Frankie slapped a hundred quid fine on me for speeding and recorded my licence.”

 

“No way!”

 

“Yeah, I was caught on the back road to Cilldargan last week.”

 

“Umm, Avril? Was there a photo with the fine?” inquired Siobhan.

 

“Yeah...” said Avril, warily.

 

“Then it wasn't Frankie who fined you. The boys from Cilldargan have these new fancy speed traps set up all over the place. I saw them putting in the one on the back road. It’s an automatic fine of up to a hundred pounds and they send along the photo as proof. Sure, you know Frankie only has the radar thing and you can spot her a mile away!”

 

“Oh, you’re not serious?” said Avril, immediately ashamed of herself. “I just let rip over there. I was so angry!”

 

“Well, I’d patch it up if I were you!” advised Siobhan. “I can’t believe she let you shout at her!”

 

“She didn’t have much of a choice. I kind of slammed in and slammed out. No wonder she hadn’t a clue what I was talking about. Damn it.”

 

“Opps!” said Siobhan.

 

“Opps is right! I feel such an idiot! What must she think of me?”

 

“Knowing Frankie, she probably doesn’t think a whole lot of you right now. If I were you, I’d apologise soon, you don’t want to let something like that go on.”

 

“I know, you’re right. It’s just-”

 

“Avril, get over it. Swallow your pride and say sorry. Why loose a friend over something like this?” advised Siobhan.

 

“I’m going!” said Avril with a smile. “Brendan’s not the only teacher around here, is he?”

 

“I don’t know what you mean,” said Siobhan, deadpan. She spotted Stumpy sitting in his cat carrier on the desk and called after Avril. “Hey, don’t forget the cat!” Avril did a double take and reached back to pick up the carrier.

 

“Thanks Siobhan – for everything. I’ll talk to you during the week.”

 

“See ya’ Avril. Bye Stumpy, see you again I’m sure!”

 

“Meeowwww”

 

.oOo.

 

Avril walked back through the village to the Garda station with Stumpy in tow. Before going in she ran across the road and loaded him into the back of her jeep. She hovered outside the door of the station, fist poised to knock, or should she just walk in? Taking a deep breath, she opened the door and walked up to the hatch. She looked into Frankie’s office but there was no sign of her.

 

“Back for round two, is it?” came a voice from behind her. Frankie stood there with a cup of coffee in her hand and a scowl on her face. Avril turned around.

 

“No, not round two, I’m here to apologise.”

 

“I see.”

 

“Frankie… I behaved like an idiot. Sorry. I realise it wasn't you who fined me and-”

 

“Avril wait,” she said, putting her coffee down on the desk. “It doesn’t matter that I wasn't the one who caught you speeding, you still were! You broke the law and sixty-five miles an hour isn’t a minor thing you know. Even if I did catch you, I would’ve had to fine you. I can’t let people away with things just because they’re my friends. I thought you would’ve understood that.”

 

“I do Frankie, really. It’s just money is short at the moment and the last thing I needed was a big fine like that. I do apologise and I do consider you a friend. I hope I haven’t ruined it.”

 

Frankie gave a small smile and thought about her answer. “No, nothing’s ruined. But you need to know that something like this could happen again. If that’s going to be a problem then-”

 

“It’s not going to be a problem,” assured Avril. “If I had taken Vincent’s advice and realised you had a job to do, instead of jumping up and down, I wouldn’t have behaved like a fool and insulted you. He tried to tell me but I was determined to rant and rave. To get something for my money, I suppose.”

 

“Right, well, say no more about it. Next time, listen to Fr. Sheahan. Here’s your license back, which you were supposed to wait for, and by the way, you were supposed to send that fine to Dublin yourself.”

 

“Oh, I’ll do it n-”

 

“I already sent it on.” Avril’s face reddened and she felt even worse as Frankie had done her a favour on top of what had happened.

 

“I really feel so stupid right now and once again I am really sorry. It won’t happen again,” she said, embarrassed.

 

“OK Avril, we’ll leave it at that! At least we cleared the air.” Frankie still wasn’t thrilled and her tone was a bit frosty.

 

Avril heard the clipped sound to her speech but decided not to push her luck. Frankie would simmer down eventually, now that she had an apology.

 

“At least that! Bye Frankie, I’ll see you around. I’ve got to get Stumpy home – I’ve just picked him up from Siobhan.”

 

“Cheers Avril. Keep that cat away from me!!”

 

The two of them parted on civil terms and Avril drove back home. Frankie had documents to fill out so she continued working in her office and thought about what happened. She figured it was typical Avril to behave that way. Avril was known to be a kind of “act first, think later” person, but her genuine remorse over any wrongdoing was plain to see. Frankie didn’t like fights at all. She was amazed at how some people could carry on with their lives after having a big falling out with another person. A simple argument would remain on her mind until everything was straightened out.

 

In a way, it’s what made her a good Garda. If something wasn’t right, she kept looking for answers until she got them. The downside was that she did find it hard to switch off. If there was a case she was involved with, it took up her attention. She remembered the time she was with CAB, that case has consumed her every waking hour and most of her sleeping ones too. As she was undercover, she had to act a part and her dreams became a muddled mess of her real life and her fake one. The day her cover was blown was one of the worst in her life. Drug dealers were so paranoid that anyone new to the field was thoroughly checked out and Frankie wasn’t as careful as she should have been. She didn’t know how long they were on to her and feeding her false information, but it must have been some time. It was how they flushed out police informers, give them enough information and they’ll hang themselves.

 

She still had flashbacks of the gun pointed straight at her head and a bang as Derek fired first. It was so far removed from her current life that it seemed like it was one of her dreams. Here she was, in a small, rural village so safe from everything. What did she really have to worry about? A few poached salmon from the salmon farm, illegal parking, the odd ‘miracle worker’, a ghost here and there, petty theft – it was idyllic really. She wasn’t going to complain, she loved it here. The dark, murky criminal underworld of Dublin was welcome to stay where it was.

 

She knew that her transfer request from Dublin was looked upon with great favour. A mistake in that line of work was usually fatal so she was shipped out as quickly as the machinations of the Garda Siochána would allow. Cork didn’t suit as it too was a city, but when a small village needed a Garda, it was perfect. Here she was safe and given enough time the whole incident would be forgotten in Dublin. By all accounts, that had already happened but they still needed to one hundred percent certain. Frankie had dyed her hair blond when undercover and it was much longer, almost to her waist. She had worn contacts to change the colour of her eyes and spoke with a Northern accent. When she escaped that night, the first thing she did when she got home was dye her hair back to black and cut it to shoulder length. She looked so different now to the sassy taking blond girl from Belfast that you couldn’t associate the two.

 

This was something that she wanted to keep to herself, it was better for everyone that they didn’t know about it. Only five people, herself included, knew about her undercover operation and that was the way she wanted it to stay. Her Inspector at the time encouraged her to tell someone she trusted, as it would help should she ever need to talk about it. Frankie was resolute though; she didn’t want anybody, especially her family, to have that extra worry. She knew Inspector Malone was right, it was a big thing to keep to herself, but he understood and told Frankie to contact him immediately if she ever felt in danger. He assured her that the case would remain a sealed investigation until the last member of the gang was rounded up. He reminded her that as far as that guy knew, Frankie had been an informer not an actual member of the Gardaí which was something to be thankful for. She wanted to tell Vincent about it the other night and had come very close it. However, she stopped herself from talking because she didn't want him to worry either.

 

What she wanted most was to receive a phone call from Malone telling her the last gang member was either dead or in custody. She supposed then that she would be called back to Dublin, maybe finally becoming a sergeant. She suspected that if she wanted, she could stay here. They wouldn’t force her to back if she didn’t want to, but the likelihood of her becoming sergeant would be greatly diminished. She knew the choice would be hers to make should it ever arise.

 

Frankie continued to ponder her future, thinking about what she would do and where she would go. Suddenly, she realised that she’d been staring at the wall for the better part of an hour for the second time today!

 

“What the hell is wrong with me?” she cried out.

 

“Where do I start?” came the reply. Frankie covered up her fright as much as possible. It wouldn't do to be startled out of her wits again.

 

“Do you think that’s funny Brendan?”

 

“I’m not laughing Frankie!” he said. “I was just wondering when you were going to stop talking to yourself and staring at the wall?”

 

“Oh, you’re such a comedian. You totally missed your calling,” she said icily. “What can I do for you? And how did you get in here so quietly?”

 

“The door was open, I just walked on in,” he explained. “I need you to sign these passport photos for Siobhan.” He passed them across to her.

 

“She’s supposed to give them to me in person.”

 

“Ah come on, don’t start! She probably would have, but she’s up to her elbows-”

 

“I don’t want to know what she’s up to her elbows in, thanks. I suspect it’s something disgusting. Where’s the passport application form?”

 

“The what?”

 

“She would’ve had a form with all her details on it. I need to stamp and sign it too.”

 

“Oh damn! I didn’t bring it. Hold on, I’ll be back, it’s in the car,” he said as he made his way out. “You carry on with whatever it was you were doing – sorry if I interrupted anyone!”

 

“Get lost!” Frankie was smiling now. She was grateful to Brendan for snapping her out of her melancholy thoughts. She finished filling out her documents and was just about to file them when Brendan arrived back with Aisling.

 

“There you go Frankie,” he said as he handed over the form. “Say hello to Garda Sullivan, Aisling.”

 

“Hewo, Gwada Suwifan” stumbled Aisling, the finer points of Frankie’s title escaping her.

 

“Hello Aisling. What are you doing today?”

 

“I flied my new kite. Whats are you doin’?” she inquired, wondering what the banging sound was.

 

“I’m putting a stamp on your Mammy’s form so she can go on a holiday,” answered Frankie, amused at Aisling’s precociousness.

 

“Can I have one?” Aisling was taken with the purple ink and the Garda crest on the form. “It’s pwetty.”

 

“Garda Sullivan will give you one stamp if you ask nicely,” said Brendan.

 

Frankie who was reaching for the stamp already, waited for Aisling. Brendan and Siobhan were currently trying to teach Aisling the importance of “please” and “thank you”.

 

“Pwease can I have a stump sank you,” said Aisling in one breath.

 

“Of course you can,” said Frankie, stamping a bit of paper. She put Siobhan’s form and photographs in an envelope and handed the lot to Aisling. “Now, there’s your form and there’s the one for your Mammy.”

 

“Ohhh, sank you,” squealed Aisling, delighted with herself.

 

Frankie laughed and looked at Brendan. “She’s a clever girl Brendan! Remind Siobhan to post those through the post office. They have that passport express thing now so you don’t have to go into Wicklow.”

 

“I will Frankie, thanks for all that. Bye now.”

 

“Bye Brendan, bye Aisling.”

 

“Byebye Gwada Snuffalin!” she called, still not quite getting it and wondering why her Daddy was laughing.

 

.oOo.

 

Continue to Chapter Three