My dear __________
As you read this letter, we would like you to know
that we miss you and that so much has changed because
of you. We always thought this sort of thing happened
to other people, not us

Maybe, in your heart, you thought you were doing us
a favour by taking your own life. What hurts most is
that you never really said "Goodbye" or gave us a
chance to say "Goodbye". We have cried as we tried
to understand your despair, your misery.

At times we have been angry with you
for what you did to yourself,
for what you did to us. At times we felt
responsible for your death. We have searched for what
we did or failed to do, for the clues we missed.

Yet we know that we didn't make your choice. We are
learning to stop feeling responsible for your death.
If we were responsible for you, you'd still be alive.

We all think of you so often, even when it hurts to
remember. We are really lonely for your presence and
whenever we hear your songs, we still cry for you. We feel
sad that you're not here to share so many moments with us.
That's when our mornings have no beginning and our nights
seem long as winter.

Slowly though, it's getting less hard. We try to
remember the good times. Maybe you 've seen seen us smile
a little more. We're learning to live again, realising
that we cannot die because you chose to die. We pray
that you are at peace. At the end of our days we look
forward to being with you again. Peace.