He came as I saw he would.... He came as I saw he would, lithe as a fisherman, cursing the oars. The eye on the prow calming the wave, his man at the helm knotting old nets. The sun on his shoulder as the dream had foretold. I sent my young singing bird down to the beach, she watched where he went. When I knew he had taken a mouthful of wine, I closed up my eyes, went deep for the steadying vision and called up the song. I sent myself walking the sand, winding him down to the deep where the fish in red armour walk slowly the rock and the weed. When I felt the tide turn I cast, caught him and hauled on the net. Sun betweeen shoulderblades turned me to ghost as I passed by his eyes, I felt his heart leap in my breast like a fish in a pool but I passed, When I turned for the homeplace I heard his foot slap in my dust. That was the drumbeat my heart's song had waited the years for. He flared at my heels like a fire, dreams like a torrent I wanted to tame, channel and feed to my vines pouring onto his feet. |
When I passed through the gate I faltered and wanted to turn but a child called in her fright where the dog had grown bold. I watched in the bronze of her eyes as I went to the house: my mother had measured him, fixed on his station and place. I had to teach my singing birds new measure and grace, I had to guard my look and thought make my face mask of the moon, watch myself, ward myself In word and gesture. My lovers at night become troubled and sad, turning under my hand like fish in dark water. I watched until the stars had dusted the full grapes, keeping his dreams from him, the better to take his body. Theo Dorgan From Sappho's Daughter Wave Train Press 1998 |