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a few hours the pains started to come. I tried to time them, but there didn't
seem to be any start or end. I suddenly realised I hadn't felt the baby
move since the big contraction early that morning. I knew sometimes babies
go to sleep before the big event, but I needed reassurance. I rang my midwife
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Adam
with his mommy and daddy
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The pains were really
bad now and I thought we were nearly there. When Kate arrived she performed
a quick examination and told us I should go to hospital straight away.
That's when I started to panic. I thought I'd have to have an emergency
section. She already knew the truth.
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When we
arrived at the hospital they rushed us to an examination room. First they
listened for a heartbeat, then they looked. There was none. Our baby had
died early that morning from a sudden and complete placental abruption.
There was no reason, and no way of knowing it would happen. I gave birth
to our beautiful, perfect baby boy at 5:20 that evening. It was the hardest
thing I have ever done. We will always love and remember our precious Adam.
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Well,
here I am over two and a half years on and my life is not what it used
to be. Adam is still in my thoughts every waking second, and often in
the sleeping ones too. I have learned a lot through his short life, and
made some wonderful new friends. I have a beautiful new son who makes
me smile every day. I miss my tiny boy so much though.
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