Goodbye, So Long.
by Jeanne M.
Usual: Not Mine. I wish. All
recognizable characters belong to their owners. The song
"Within You" belongs to David Bowie. It's set
about 8 years in the future. Written in response to a
dare- combine Jono, David Bowie, and Jubilee. *Grr* You
know who you are. I don't like Husk. Paige Guthrie fans,
don't kill me. Please, feedback. Onwards!
How you've turned my world,
Why? What is it that drove you
towards me in the beginning? You drew me in like a moth
to a flame, your sunshine both fascinated and repulsed me.
Yer so damn beautiful. So pure, so untouchable. Beyond my
reach. At least, that's what you wanted me to think. Tell
me, gel. Was it some dark, morbid fantasy that intrigued
you, caused you to play these games? Me against him, him
against me. Two damned souls fighting for the same
angelic princess. Is that what you wanted? Only he
pretended he wasn't damned, he honestly thought that he
was your knight in shining armor.
I move the stars for no one,
I could only do so much. How could
I compete with him? And when we found out about his
grandfather, and what that old bastard did...... I couldn't
believe you stayed with him. Especially after he blamed
poor Jubes for taking the sod away. That gel. Somedays, I
think the world has it in for her just as much as me. Did
you know that we're engaged? No, I didn't think you did.
Yeah, the first member of Gen X. to extend towards me her
hand. My sparkler. Just as dark and scared as me in her
own way, only she never succumbed to her demons. I love
her. I lusted after you, I love her.
you've run so long,
I. Never. Loved. You. Once, I
thought I did. It's easy to mistake infatuation with love.
With your wholesome country goodness and your winning
smile, you were nothing more than a shallow flirt. A
cheap, sad, jealous girl. You were jealous of your
brother for being a mutant first, you were jealous of
Monet and Ev for being more powerful and having more
control, you were jealous of Jubilee being a former X-Man,
you were jealous whenever something would take attention
away from you. I know what Miss Frost said to you that
day when you were watching Penny and me. Surprised? I
know a lot. More than anyone gives me credit for. I know
that yer leaving tonight, yer going to Genosha.
though I do believe in you......
I'm sure you can do whatever you
set your mind to. The only time you ever failed at
anything was you lost the position of team leader. Oh,
the one thing ya wanted most. The reason you lost was
because you wanted it so badly. You wanted the title, the
power, and you lost to two people who didn't really want
it, but had what it took to keep us alive. You lost to me
and Jubes. Bet that had to smart. But this job that the
Genosha government is offering you, it's a good one. You
can make a difference there, I know it. What kind of
difference is up to you.
can't live without the sunlight,
So, tonight I sit before the
fireplace, just thinking. Letting the last happy memories
of us go. I know someday we'll meet up again,
unfortunately I have a feeling that it will be on the
opposite sides of a battlefield. We both thought once
that someday we could work it out. But I couldn't live my
life trailing after you forever, lost in your eyes. I
have more pride than that. I watched you go from a
shallow girl into a strong woman. Frost would be so proud
of you. I go my way now, and you go yours. I'll pretend
to be surprised when you don't show up to the welcoming
party for Amiko. What is it with Wolverine's gels all
joining superteams? That kid is something else, the way
she picks fights...... reminds me a lot o her 'dad'.
I can't live within you.
Later Paige. I got things to do.
Make sure me gel is sleeping soundly. I wouldn't want her
to go on one of her famous insomniac wanderings and find
you leaving. That could get messy. I let you go, now do
the same for me. For all of us.